Glamour interrupted....

i am reading a book called Glamour, Interrupted by Steven "Cojo" Cojocaru. He's a famous fashion guy who had a kidney disease and had 2 transplants!!! omg 2!!! i can't even imagine. His first one was rejected...I haven't gotten to that part yet...i just know from when it happened.
This book has been great for me to read. Although i'm not a guy and I didn't have the same disease as him, it's really great to read someone else write about what I went through! No matter what, unless you've been through it, you can't really tell me you know how i feel! no one can relate!!! I have to say one of the hardest things is not having someone fully understand. Even the random people that have had transplants that I do talk to...it's always "yeah but you know what happened to me?" like there situation is more important than mine...which i guess in their eyes it is, as my situation is more important than anyone elses...but it still be nice to just have someone with a bit more knowledge. whatever. I'm really not one to complain about it. I'm happy i had my transplant. I really believe things happen for a reason. I was MENT to have this happen to me. Trust when I say..it definately was GLAMOUR INTERRUPTED!! haha
i was 18 post high school graduate about to start my second term @ NCC when I got sick!!!

I was young hot skinny as can be...smoked ciggs, didn't give a fuck about much! This whole sickness changed me. It made me really appreciate things. As i've gotten older I really have always tried to stay honest with MYSELF about what I want from life. I want to be happy.
I am in this great relationship right now. Duncan is amazing!!! xxxx I cannot get over how wonderful he is sometimes!! Would I be lying if I said I didn't want to marry him and have his kids? i would LOVE that!!!! BUt I am content and really truly happy right NOW with what we have. If my desire for those things get stronger..then i'll worry about that then.

Fathers day is coming up. I got my dad a DVD season 1. WOO HOO! Dad gave me a kidney I give him a dvd!!! lol

Doesn't make sence huh. What do you get him? How do you say thatnks for being such a great dad...AND A LIFE SAVER!!! i mean really...no matter how many Sting cd's I buy..it will never be enough! lol

I really love my dad.

I cannot express how much he means to me...even minus the whole kidney thing.

He's amazing. STRONG. tough yet loving. Never met a man like him. prolly never will. He is one of a kind in so many ways. I hope I make him proud. Do i make him proud? Which would be better? thinking hes proud when in reality he thinks i could do better with everyhting...Or knowing that hes not proud of things ive done...but at least the honesty is there. why the hell am i thinking that? anyways....

Well i'm gonna go to bed now.

I hope I write again soon...like in a few days!!!!!

xoxo~@